Yesterday I was at the gym thinking that, since it’s almost January 1, I might have to start waiting for elliptical machines again pretty soon. It’s the time of year where people make resolutions to lose weight, to go back to the gym, to “get healthy.” And the gym gets crowded, and Weight Watchers meetings fill up, and it’s a brand new year.
I’m no exception. As recently as 2006, I made a resolution to lose weight. I didn’t lose any weight in 2007; instead, I exercised more and ate better, and lowered my cholesterol by 25 points. That made me realize that I would much prefer health-based resolutions, and I resolved to exercise throughout 2008. I didn’t do a perfect job. But I made it to the gym most weeks, and I continued to cut way down on sugar consumption, and I ate mindfully, and I feel good about that.
This year I’ve resolved to keep track of my exercising, since I actually have no record of how often I went to the gym in 2008. I should also take vitamins and (as the nutritioatnist suggested) strive for five servings of fruits and veggies daily. If I were feeling really ambitious, I might resolve to join my husband and Nonk for a round of personal training, or go to a therapist to talk about compulsive eating, or finally bike that century that I’ve been wanting to do. A pile of resolutions that is kind of setting myself up for failure, since I probably won’t do all of them.
But should I make them anyway? Is it better to try and fail than to never have tried at all? Or is this whole cycle part of the same fucked up, damaged roller coaster that we’re all always on? How can we tell the difference between lifestyle changes that are realistic and good for us, and those that just doom us to self-loathing and body hatred? And if we make resolutions and don’t keep them, or don’t keep them perfectly, how can we be kind to ourselves in the process?
So, do you believe in resolutions? Are you making any health-based or weight-loss-based or health-at-any-size-based resolutions this year? How about last year? I’d love to know what you guys think.
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