Here’s the e-mail I got today (bolding mine):
I guess I don’t really know how to start this, other than I just read the blog about the 14 year old with a bad self image, and it gave me the courage to say something too. I’m 16 years old, and I am bulimic. It doesn’t matter how pretty I tell myself I am, how good I am at sports (and I will admit, I am a decent soccer player and runner) I just can’t help it. Being an athlete probably makes it all worse, because I see all those other girls in those freaking tight unitards in track, and I feel so self-concious. It all started halfway through sophmore year, when I gained my “freshmam 15″ a little early, and lets just say it wasn’t all muscle. I’ll be the first to say I’m not fat, but I’m not what I used to be, and there’s a definite “comfort pouch” around my midsection. I hate that I hate myself, but I just can’t help but feel so guilty after eating a big meal. And I never feel full anymore. I feel like I’m constantly eating. I hate depriving myself of food, and I don’t have enough will power to ignore the fact that I am hungry, so I eat. Then even if I do eat a lot, I still don’t feel satiated, so I eat more, then I feel so guilty, I run to my bathroom. Then afterwards I hate myself for not having the will to not eat, or to stop. And I want so badly to stop doing it, but the guilt gets the better of me. I guess the point of this email was to just ask for help, because I can’t go to my parents or a teacher. Is there anything I can do to feel fuller or to make the hunger go away? because telling myself I am beautiful just the way I am just won’t work anymore. I feel like if I don’t lose the “pouch” I’ll never be happy. And I mean, I eat really healthy now, and I exercise 6-7 days a week, but it just won’t go away! I’m just so tired of feeling this way. I guess that’s it. Thanks for listening, sorry for the uber long email, and you’re probably thinking right about now, god, why do people always drop their problems on me, but I didn’t know where else to go.
This is beyond my expertise, my friends. She thinks she should “make the hunger go away” so she can lose weight, she feels bad about eating at all, but she’s an athlete and needs sustenance! Obviously, she needs help and resources to change her relationship with food. What are the best resources for young girls with eating disorders?
Since you all helped our 14-year-old so much, and since that inspired this e-mail, I hope you’ll help reach out to this girl, and others like her. She was so brave to write to me; so brave to admit she has a problem and look for help. Let’s help her. Thank you in advance.
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